December

December

It's complicated

I don't know what kind of feeling for this whole December

as usual

insomnia happened most the time

thinking of those 

those memories in my life that I've forgotten

I'm trying hard to recall it

what's in my memories

December 2012

Kit leave for 2 years

time flies

and it's been 2 years time

Steven leave for 3 weeks

and I'm still here

regret coz I didn't attend the funeral

thinking of these

these people walk into my heart

read my mind

they found the key to open it

they are 

exists deeply true into my heart

December 2012

work pressure never stop

bad luck never stop

and all these tons of shit

its totally drowning me

count down day by day

waiting for next month Taiwan trip

I dont give a fuck

so I will just leave all this shit behind

walking away from here

It's more than 2 years

and It's more than enough

December 2012

It's been 2 years

The funniest and awkward moment

When you seeing him is dating with another girl right in front you

those forgotten memories automatic is recalling back

and the next step

i'm just walk away

just walk away

''why don't you just go into the front and say Hello and give them a bless?''

I'm not sure

he is willing to see my presence in his life or 

I'm not sure

he is totally absence from my life

For no reason

I just wanna walk away

from this terrible December

It's been 2 years

How many years should I take

towards the end?

'Give a break, take a breathe; leave the shit, don't eat it'

peng, everything gonna be alright

you need some time

just a little bit more

a little bit more then is just enough

everything will be fine

god bless always, finger crossed. 

起点 终点

起点，终点
有时候 有些事情
败在起点 不见的你会输在终点
好比爱情一样
赢了起点
却在半路的意见分歧
第三者的出现
你赢了起点
却输了和他一起走到最后的终点
输在了起点
后半段的人生
寻寻觅觅注定的他
让他陪你一起走到最后
你输在起点 可你赢在终点

有些时候 有些事情
败在起点 不见的你会输在终点
好比生活一样
不是含着金钥匙出生在富裕的家庭里
你输在了起点
每天烦恼你的生活起居
钱是你的所有烦恼根源
可你赢在了终点
每天的默默耕行
你懂得你的钱是你的体力和时间换来的
你的生活是过得充实的
让你出生在富裕的家庭
每天到处闲晃 花钱
你有着别人羡慕的生活
你没有钱的烦恼
你有的是时间
可是 你的人生是没有意思的
你败在了终点


人的一生都在活着来证明自己的存在，靠的，就是你这一生的过程 - 张小娴

Leonardo da Vinci- the last supper

The last supper

I'll never expect that's your last supper with us
Few days back just chat with you
You told me u'll be alright
But the same day when night
Someone that will never contact me or even talk to me
Suddenly he whatsapp me
Please me to call you ask u to stay strong
I'm shocked
What's going on
Called but your mum pick up the call
I realized
This is serious
And I started can't sleep well
So we decided depart to Penang on the spot to visit you
Hopefully you're alright
Been travel and drive for 5 hours to arrive Penang hospital
Seeing you lying thr
You say you'll be alright
And we will back to alor setar together
Before back to alor setar
We all having dinner together
Your parent, dee parents ah tiam ah Xin
We have joy have fun have laugh

I'll never expect this is the last supper
Sunday seeing you're alright
Under family caring
So we leave and back to kl

But I'll never expect this could happen
You leave us like this
I can't stop crying when dee called me and tell me
You're gone

Struggling for long
I couldn't handle this
To attend your funeral
The moment we have dinner together
Is just like happened yday

I can't believe you're gone like this
Cried and cries
Everyone is worried about me
I know I can't attend the funeral even though I want to
But I'll out of control

Today
Is the ending of your funeral
Sorry for I can't attend

I wanna to say
You're a good guy and your parent will be proud of you
I know you always be with us
Rest in peace Steven soon sen

Thanks for the someone
Without your sudden whatsapp
I'll never go up north to see him last face
Thanks even though we will never talk to each other anymore

Life is short
Keep moving on

无言

还有什么比知道真相来的心痛？

十月

十月

对我好一点

可以吗？

我真的很tension 啊

我已经感觉很懒惰了

放过我

好吗？

太多‘黑‘事发生啊！

speechless

today
i'm totally speechless

my assistant just so sudden fall down from the chair
and just lay on the floor
and me and another assistant quickly go ahead and see what's going on
keep calling her,
she din't answer
she can't wake
she is so called 'pengsan'

damn,
I just don't know what to do
called a guy and another 2 girls come in for help
carry her to the sofa
she just no respond

damn,
inform boss quickly
request to send her to clinic asap

with a cruel respond we got from boss
'no need la, let she rest and sleep on sofa awhile then ok de la''
''the rest ppl all go to work''

and then she just leave us like this
damn you boss
after 30mins, still she don;t respond to us
afraid she will have dangerous

request to the boss once again
she refused.
ended up, we have to contact her family to come and pick her to hospital
when the moment her bro arrived
''why no send to hospital?''
and we just stand over there and quiet.

what a shame?!!!!
disappointed on this company once again
i'm totally speechless

someday i guess if this happen again, someone might will be dies coz of my cruel boss.

小人当道

Today is not a good day

I've been backstab by the others

mtfkrs ccb
Did wrong so panai blame it on me?
My name so nice to use?
Everything say "Ms Lim decided, follow Ms Lim only"
"I don't know, Ms lim say de"
Walao u guys, since when I say so?
Since when, where and who I told to do so??

Still dare they smiling front of me

pretend everything is nothing

I can't do anything

except scolding ccb inside my heart

I can't argue with them

coz i'm lazy to 'count' with them

if really wan to 'count'

definitely i can 'count' til you guys die

I tel u!
Jin eh Shi kek sim nia
Jin jia Shi oh gao Tao jia bie gao dio liak!!
Black dog curi eat white dog kena caught

for 2 years 2 months working here

56 days more to go for my farewell

last day is coming soon to me

i'm set myself free

from this mtfkrs company

thanks for your low pay basis somehow high bonus for it

mcb

i'm going to left you all with a piece of shyt

you all shall know without me

you gonna fail your project without me

backstab me? hng ... beware bitch
Geram Geram nye....

ccb mcb gcb pwtc!!! what the heck i'm scolding about?? - -''

感谢生命里有''你''

那天
和朋友饮酒狂欢后
和‘’特友‘’出去了
他
真的很特别
我人生中的
印象最深刻的记忆
全都有他的影子

这天
和他去看了场卡通
这是我们最爱的活动
我们一起去戏院看了不少的卡通
一样的
点了我们喜爱的日本餐
买了我们各自的面膜，指甲油，衣服
一样的
他就是不让我花任何的一分钱
就连我买给同事的礼物
他就是要付钱
真的拿他没辙
他也陪我去取车　看着我上了车
它才离开
让我感觉很放心

记得
他第一次约我出去喝酒
我们第一次去看变形金刚3D
第一次他教我尝试了日本餐的冷面
让我爱上了这道美食
我第一次喝醉了
是他当护花使者陪我做LRT回家
是他让我依靠着
送我到家
他说
不让我花任何的一分钱
真的
那天 我想他真的花了不少钱
说了还他 他拒绝了

还记得有一次
和他闲聊时
我房间飞来很大很大的甲虫
在电话中尖叫
他紧张的跑来我家
帮我赶走了那只甲虫
他看着我被吓哭了 赶紧安慰我
也买了2瓶啤酒 闲聊了直到我那3个housemate从clubbing回来
可怜的我独自做着我的final year project
不能参我的朋友出去
感谢他
那晚如果没有他
我想我真的会怕那个虫到不知所措

两年的大学生活
每天搭乘巴士
早上和放学
他也陪着我
下雨了 他一定会为我撑伞
迟到了
他也会等我 陪我一起搭计程车
总是提醒我 别空腹
功课做不完 他一定提醒我 教我 借我 帮我
因为我不聪明　功课不好　常常跷课　
是他安慰我　因为他真的能体会我害怕面临被停学的恐惧
只有他懂
两年的大学　成绩没过2.0而面临termination的日子
是他陪我度过
成绩安然度过　 他还会送我巧克力当作鼓励
因为他知道　我喜欢巧克力

在同班同学的眼里
我和他
好像一对
别人都说 我们很登对
说真的
我们有着相同的性格 同样的想法
一样爱上了藤井树的文着
我和他
却
我们只能做朋友
一种超越朋友 却不能做男女朋友的朋友
因为我们彼此知道
我们各自心里都有着各自的他和她

两年后的重逢
一样的
我们依然有着特别的感觉　特别的感情
我们都深深知道
我们都是彼此　特别的朋友

感谢有你
让我有着感动的回忆
也有着愉快的一天
想你　Liang Lee.
我特别的朋友

愿你有更好美好的未来。
希望下次我们再见　彼此身边都有他和她的陪伴　:)




















*两年前的我们　有够痹的！

September! ouch!!

''tolong weh
boring weh
i'm lost weh
bising weh
busuk weh''

these are what I keep heard recently
haiz
boss too rich I think
suddenly go buy 3 houses as hostel for foreign worker while we have already 3 houses existing
gosh.. boss really boss
you have total 6 houses including semi-D le
renovate whole factory including office
adding 2 new office
new building
new rooms
and made the whole company like a maze

sometimes wanna go to another department
feels like there is thousand of doors I have to open
passing through here and there only reach the destination

renovation dusty
noisy and even boring
because we have to stop on-hands task to let them renovate
boring weh
my project pending alot
gila siao renovation

Sept sucks because have to pay my car insurance + road tax =1.2k
sumore bought sth 3k again
why I spent so much??? siao eh..
wanna buy a sony nex-5ND/W camera, RM2999 but no money =(

money ar money,
why u so little yet I use so much??
how to get more money?
wa bo lui bo lui bo lui le....

you might think i'm a money minded

but sorry

at least I use my own money

and I'm enjoying to spend my own money

that's it!

我说啊~

最近的我
感觉还不错

顶着一头短发
我说啊 短发 还真是短啊
依稀记得我剪过短发
好丑 因为是为了他而剪的
现在的我 不为谁 只为自己
感觉这短发 我看起来还不错 :]
最近的我
感觉肚子里有虫kot
昨晚叫了碟扬州炒饭来吃 感觉不够饱
再叫了碟滑蛋河吃
还是觉得不够饱
欣然发现原来我可以吃很多
感谢dee的爸妈因为怕我吃不饱kot
猛猛狂带我去吃
造就了从那天起
我可以吃很多的''特异功能''！
唉，开始想念馃条汤,laksa和siam jiak :]

最近的我
感觉不是很瘦
感谢我去了趟亚罗士打，槟城,怡保和瓜拉雪兰莪的美食之旅
让我的体重终于达到40公斤啦 :]
可喜可贺 嘻嘻
最近的我
感觉美好
有着新的开始
想着新的生活
别问我以前的事
我忘了 反正没什么值得去留恋的
我的记忆不好
别考我的脑力
你知道的 :]

哦对了

我不喜欢和别人解释
我不喜欢和别人交待我的所有
你在那， 你在干嘛，你等下要做什么
bla bla bla bla black sheep
如果你发现我不回复任何的信息
那你该放弃
因为我真的会忽视 忘记 懒惰 随便 的回复
切记 因为我就是这样的一个人
我不为谁而活
您的关心 收在心里就好
我只要
活在当下

期待我的下个旅程
我要出走去！:]

Change

After weeks for my Cameron trip, Alor Setar outstation,
I'm really tired..
I need some rest
but there's pending trip on coming weeks again
Thailand (:
Should I happy or what?
Dunno ..
And the most import- Ireland
I'm going to there silently if I settled down everything asap
and I decided to start my MIA plan
starting from today
1 and half month time
I'll be changed
as what I wish to change to be
There's something I need - change!

Up to you

"up to you"
Well, I like this sentences so much
Yeah, I say it to my boss

Too many things happened in these days
I'm frustrated once again
Expected ill get scold
Coz I know its not my fault
Fine, you just wanna find someone to angry and letting go ur anger
Nvm, jus scold
I'm get used to it
but please boss
I'm really no eyes to see u
Whatever u wan to do
Jus go ahead, up to u!
Coz u nvr think the consequence if u done so
Who's going to responsible for it
Don't u noe NPCB, JKKP & Kualiti Alam wil question me?
You're putting me on the table..
At the end I argued with boss
Ended she quiet n refuse to talk wit me
I also lazy to see her face
This will make me more moody n hard to concentrate on my work
Luckily I got my phone
At least I know what's the reason I buy iPhone
To whatsapp and LiNE chat wit my best frens chai ling

work..
Working life
What's the meaning of all these?
Peng, whr is ur dream that u wish to make it since long time ago?
I asked myself

Whr it is?

完了

我做不出
我做不完
我真的做不完
我完蛋了
我真的尽力了
为什么
根本就是强人所难
要把一个月才能完成的
要我在4天内完成
我根本做不到
我已经每天都加班
我已经不停地做
我真的做不出
我真的做不出

I'm so freeeee~

Recently very very free
While waiting for audit
Everyday me n my senior keep on searching for new career
Yes we're bored
Bored to be here
So here's something funny happened
Boss wanna put a CCTV screen on our department
For what? Hahahhaha
To let us see who's outside the gate then we go open the gate
Walao.. Since when our QC department become "jaga" also har?
Really LMAO!!!
Boss :"everything under QC"
We :" who know someday toilet also under our control ar?"
Ridiculous boss!!
You're so funny :|
Everyday discussing bout job n salary
What a life~
boss always give some "mission impossible" while we always lie to ourselves "nothing is impossible"
Hahahhaha, senior chemist really not easy to do..
All these time I tot chemist wil b my dream job n I did make it n tahan for 2 years on my 1st career.. Cham Liao..
I think I study wrong courses Tim..
Haiz.. Whr wil b the next?
Unbelievable I decided to work at HQ office at USA!!
So, see me after this!
My dream life, I'll make it someday.. This I promise you :)

you

there's nothing to be post recently
not because of I'm doing nothing
but just I'm searching for something
something that could really change my life
so
i'm searching for
''you''

:D

Been heard from my friend

''I saw you travelling quite often, quite envy you''

hmm ..

Let me think about it

'Yeah, you're right, I think I am :3 ''

Let's recall back where I've been and places I'll be there for this 2 thousand 12. - 2o12 ♥

Jan - Bukit tinggi, pahang & Penang

Feb - Phuket & Krabi, thailand

Mar - Alor Setar & Penang

Apr - Melacca

May - Alor Setar & Penang

Jun - planning ...

Jul - Singapore

Aug - Cameron 

Sept - planning

Oct - USS, Singapore

Nov - planning ...

Dec - planning ...

Well, after listed out,

gosh, I guess I did really 'cuti-cuti malaysia' quite often

but for alor setar & penang coz of work outstation

if not, I guess i wont simply travel to there ...

finally,

May is coming

a month starting from today,

is my birthday!

hmm, gonna buy sth to pamper myself soon :)

saving money mode is turned on!

I gonna get you soon~! ♥

April fool

April fool
totally really fool me ...
Due to tension and din rest well after non stop Kedah, KL trip
and some office politic issues
made me hormone imbalance
this is the first time happened in  my life
period for about 2 weeks
damn ...
made me felt tired and nearly anemia
seek for doctor and
damn ..
you think maternity doctor very cheap ar?
Hello, consulted and some medicine costed RM200++ !!!
!@#$%^&*
and I should fucking glad that medicine works
and finally hormone is back to normal level and I got back my NORMAL LIFE!
you have no idea how suffer a girl/women during period
''pain, uncomfortable feel, emotion''
and worst is can't even take leave :(
and now the biggest April fool in my life
a lab technician complain her leader- microbiologist
and supposing Micro lab ain't under my supervision since I'm in charge Chemical Lab
shyt weh... you 2 ppl wan fight also choose right timing & location la!
what the hell you fight front of BOSSS??
and lab technician,
please la you should know your own position,
you just a lab technician, how could you scold some rude word on your leader?
mcb betul coz at the end,
I'm so innocent and involved in this stupid office politic
lab technician, you wan resign then resign la, what the hell you tell boss you wan to transfer to my department and under me?
''Hello, you think if i need assistant, I'll choose you meh? Who knows someday you will scold me like how you treat your previous leader?''
shyt .. even myself also got plenty work to do already
still wan to take care a 'baby' and a 'mama'
i'm not babysitter la..boss
don't keeep on throw rubbish for me la
you really think i'm god i'm superwomen meh?
celaka your India project
you should fucking glad and thanks to me coz I helped you completed this fucking 1 year + RM700k project ...
fuck you, boss
!@#$%^&*




*sorry for the rudeness, I just can't accept this April fool!*

累了

最近真的很累 很累
感觉好多事都不在状况内
该死的感冒 感染了整个公司
每个人都无精打采
很多东西都在一天内搞砸
很多东西都在赶
很多东西都没办法顺利完成
为什么感觉已经快要喘不过气的时候
为什么还要发生这样的事
因为我的过失 我信错了人
无辜的 被牵连了进风波
被误解的感受真的很不好受
连累别人 更让我感觉内疚
为什么会这样?
明明就不关我的事
为什么事情会演变成这样?
为什么要告诉我一些我不想知道的事情?
我不想知道
我不想知道
我不想知道!!
我只想安安静静的生活
我只想静静的一个人
我只想在别人面前是笑着的
我只想让别人看到我是笑着的
我只想让别人别担心我
我没事的
我会没事的 不是吗?
总是告诉自己
事情过了就会好的
是真的吗?


‘’有些事情  不是你说了就算‘’

Here I go~!

After back from my 5 days 4 nites krabi + phuket trip
i tot I'll have a good rest
too bad
my house and shop is under renovation T T
dusty and messy
after cincai cincai live in the dusty house for abour 3 weeks + with selipar walking around
my house finished renovate with new painting and expanding~  ♥
erm about new shop .. it will took more time on it, can't wait to see it's done!
 been through messy weeks
out of sudden need to attend inspection meeting @ sg petani
haiz .. such a far location for me to go there attend meeting
what to do? Since the project is running and we can't leave it like this
really thanks alot to dee teoh that for the accompany and give me a home stay~
besides, thanks for her family's care and let me feel that 出外靠朋友is really important
finally tasted famous nasi lemak Ong & Soon sen's steamboat ♥
once again thank you dee teoh and your family~ x)
and i managed grab some time for my girls 
driving all way down from sg petani to butterworth to meet liv, shi wenn and ann~♥
have a fun time but too short due to my rushing time
even though bit tiring driving bec from butterworth to alor setar after gathering wit my girls
but still i meet wit edwin, look, woen, yann and wee for a tea time ♥
it's feeling great to meet all my friends that lost contact for quite some time
Sunday sigh dee teoh.. let me driving all the way from AS to nilai
holy shyt super tired for non stop driving for 4 hours + +
and last mins notification from boss that the next day monday - wednesday gonna attend MOPI training @ boulevard hotel, mid valley
sigh, once again i tot i'll have a good rest
but after 3 days continuously drive go n back kl-nilai for the training
really beh tahan
holy shyt fevering + flu + cough + sore throat
haiz.. finally sick.. hell yeah but on weekend!
ruined my love weekend T^T
alright then... if can i wish to take MC on Monday
seriously I need a good rest!!! :(
  

失眠

最近 失眠闹得很凶
梦见了 自己健在的朋友突然不在人世
梦见了 已不在人世的朋友回来找我
梦见了 许多许多可怕的 意外

最近 心情闹便扭
忘了 自己的银行转账密码
启动了安全系统 这下 完蛋了 不能用了
得去银行一趟
有时间吗？
算了
该死的  却记得  那公司电邮的密码
该死的  却记得  那公司像 买万字一样长的电话号码
我却忘了 我自己的电话号码
我却忘了 我家人的电话号码

最近 失眠闹得很凶
梦里 感觉有无数的工 做不完
梦里 梦着明天我要做些什么
该死的 我的生活 就只有工作吗？
该死的 我明明就递了 辞职信
为什么 要这样用合约来约束我？
为什么 答应了的 你没做？

最近 心情闹便扭
突然很想 很想 就这样走了
好吗？
有些事 不想管了 不想理了 不想知道了
可以吗？
我很累了
好吗？

可不可以别再失眠了
好吗？

terrible date in Feb

When people talk about Feb
nothing, but Valentine
gosh .. for a single ppl like me
not really dislike tis 14 feb but
please la, still i'll envy couples lo!

everyone came and ask
''whr u go when Valentine?''
''any plan?''
''who date you ar?''

and I just ignored all the msg and Qs
ya la, sad me nobody date
then?
So?
Valentine only mah :(

But still I glad I got my friends
coz we've bought air ticket a year ago
tmwr 12 feb
i'm going to Krabi, Phuket Thailand for 5 days 4 nites trip~!!
so,
my Valentine will b celebrate with my pals
and .. at least for this year I'm not alone lo~ ~
hehehehe

Anyway,
Still I wish all the couples stay sweet and
Happy Valentine to you all~ ♥
Happy holiday to myself~
Happy Degree Convo to my sis~
and
never forget to wish you too
wish you stay happy with her ...
Truly madly deeply

Enjoy your day everyone!!! ♥

emo

recently damn down and emo
there's not much things can bring me down
except work!
I just can't accept
whatever you promised before, you didn't make it
a nice offer?
this kind of increment ?!!
been helped you for settled all your projects
now you give such low offer for me?
fine, never mind
knew you're a kiam siap people already
knew you'll only talk nicely and empty talk
fine, never mind
but now you hide inside the toilet and listen whatever peoples talk
it's such rude and cheap action!!!
you think you're the boss then you can do whatever you want??
don't you know what is privacy?
damn you boss
really damn disappointed on you
been working for almost 2 years
if you don't trust me
please don't hire me
I never doubt my working performance and even my attitude!
hng~!

Lastly,
still I want to shout out loud
''Fuck you boss!''
''I quit!'' grrrr~~~~

So So CNY~♥

It's been few weeks do not update my blog
not really busy but not really free
just lazy to switch on my computer
haha, phone is the easiest gadget for me to online if I want to
getting lazy to on fb
sometimes few days only on fb n comment or click like the latest post
honestly
fb, a boring place
so don't be surprise if I no online everyday
because nothing to do if on fb
nothing to see pun

so finally got some time for me to update my blog on this lovely Sunday~
hmm ..
2012 hor?
CNY hor?
well, my life so so lo ..
working life, can't expect it'll be fun or what
just focusing on earn money, earn more money and then
spend it all. syok~! :D
Trying to find a balancing between my single life and working life
travelling trip with my pals during weekend
yup, just went back from pahang , Ipoh n penang
a wonderful and gain weight trip :p
CNY also the same
not much different
eat, play, fun and gambling
enjoying the every single moment when we gather together
my friends,
they always cheers me up when I'm stress on my work
ya, my work ...
really getting lost on it
feel so lazy to work
Urgh... mummy says marry a rich man then no need think liao
haiz, I wish I could lo, mi~! x)

Anyway, still in CNY mood and wish not to think much bout my work
waiting my Krabi+phuket trip that coming soon~
Happy Chinese New Year peoples~♥
Gong Xi Fa Cai and huat ar~ !!!♥

New Year 2012 1st post

1st Jan 2012

I've an awesome trip with my pals

bkt tinggi, pahang 1 day trip

afterwards genting kelang dinner

pavilion movie and lepak lepak til late night 2am

it's fun coz of 10 ppls, but weirdo 5 cars

haha, don't ask me why we cant fit into 2-3 cars

because every1 departure time no same!

At last, it's a happy beginning for new year 2012~ ♥ 

2012 new year new hope

I wish all my friends, family stay healthy and wish you all may your dream comes true!!  ♥