Saturday, August 24, 2013
今天，其实没打算要写部落格，却想写下此刻脑海里的东西。今天，开始想起了，以前。以前，所谓的以前，我有些事不怎么能记得。大概记得2011年和2012年过得很难过。2011年，他离开了。看着旧照片，幼儿园开始一起成长的记忆，忘不了的。那个陪着我回家，聆听我内心的那一个我的世界，照顾我，哄我的他，就在这瞬间，在医院，什么都来不及说的，就这样离开了。2011年的12月，日子很灰，大家见面时，总是鼓励着对方，要坚强地活下去，你说的，我们很steady,我们要steady. 就是大伙的每天鼓励，见面，安慰，我们接受了，你离开了，却心还是疼的。2012年，依稀记得日子过的很灰，每天想的大概都是他，心痛了，哭了，累了，伤心的。他，我说他是我的初恋，都是我说的。一直以来的一相情愿，后来才明白。原来我们都没有开始过，也谈不上分手这件事。只能说，太爱了，却不会去爱，对不起，我没有谈恋爱的经验，我把场面搞得很难堪，朋友做不成了，讨厌，是你能做的。没想过2012年的很多话，我没想到后果造成的误会，是会造成你的伤害。以前我会在网络的世界里，说很多的话中伤了你，对不起，现在我体会到了，别人在骂我的时候，是怎样的一个体会。我不骂人了，我也不说伤害别人的话了。再也不了，有时候说的话，好比利刃，万般割在心头上。我嘲笑你的感情失败，却在同时感受了当初自己的失败，那种滋味，才明白，伤害了别人，会伤到自己的，这就是karma。沉默，是最好的。2013年，我尝试想挽回这一个朋友，想珍惜相遇这缘分，想珍惜这位朋友，可笑的，我在我们当不成朋友的那一刻到现在这一刻，我删除了所有的一切，照片，电话号码，讯息，我们的所有关系的点点滴滴，有关你的一切一切，部落格，微博，照片，我清除了，清楚了。我不会再提起你了，当个陌生人是最好的。谢谢你会记得这么一个我的生日。我不打扰了你的生活，生命中，总会有许多过客，我想我是其中的那一位。今天，看清了，再怎么爱的爱，是多么的卑微，卑贱的。我对你的爱，被践踏了，被遗忘了，是谁呢，不，是我自己。2013年的今天，对自己说 ＂你看清了你自己，多爱爱自己，好吗？两年的时间，你没了。＂往后的日子里，别再提起，说起，想起。这是最后一次，我坦诚我忠于现在的感受。这也是我最后一次，提起你了，这个文章，就是结局了。
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Today is just so awesome
Too bad I really tak larat to share all here
Linkin park concert! Why ended so fast? Come again next year pleas :D
No matter how, really love them, like their songs
Enjoy this concert!!!
By the way
Today happened things again
Nothing can say
It must be so called " admirer"
D: I'm not willing to comment him anything
Somehow I just dislike the way you treat me
Can you just treat me normal as colleague and don't too over?
This gonna pissed me off
I'm seriously, not kidding.
Damn, excited yet tired
Gonna sleep with my linkin park dream :)
Recently too much blog I guess
Gonna MIA for awhile..
Damn last time ppl use this word to describe me
Even dee, Steron, Steve all say I always MIA
Hmm.. Cincai la
I just need a rest
Saturday, August 17, 2013
I still working
That's the reason I hate 3rd week every month
Work until 12am can't escape
Yet still can't finish the work now
Because I'm too tired and work load is too much
Preferable tomorrow wake early and settle it
I must finish my report for Monday
Or else my linkin park concert gg
Whole day didn't open fb insta or even pick up call!
Now only manage to reply all message in whatsapp or urgent things
If you wanna compare and complain saying u work hard and lots of work
Think about us
My colleague work until 5am and slept only 2 hours then come to work
We not only busy on peak month but is every month!
No matter how must clear everything tomorrow
So that next week my holiday only can fully enjoy til the max!
My eyes so freaking tired after whole day look at pc
Sumore cried coz too tension
Since when is the last time I cried?
Seems like I got no choice to release my tension by cry
My tiny brain
Need some rest
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp~ I miss my bed! Ohhhhhh~
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Today will be long post to shareToday another good day and scary day
Yet something dilemma me as well
Chat with my buddy till late night 1am yesterday
And jus now had a pillow talk with chai ling
Scary day is when I driving jus now
A lorry carrying tons of stones and sands pass by my car
Actually I try to avoid those stones Kena my car mirror
Suddenly a sound bomb n the lorry tyre burst
Luckily the lorry din lost control
Or else I think it wil langgar me
I dunno should I say lucky or what
Just need to be careful when drive
Talk bout good day!
We going Japan next year! Hurray!
Happiness always happens with my friends
Yet I had a serious topic chat with chai ling too
Because shin talked me something
That changed my mind
"Where is my next destination"
I changed my field from science to finance
I gave up the senior position, lead position
Now become only level 4 as finance executive
I can't or even able to climb up to the level where I've been thru before
Due to my irrelevant background
Shin asked me
"Think about it, back to the place where you should be, you'll get what you deserved and what you need"
Chai ling ask me to think about it properly
Because I got no more time to waste n try new thing
She ask me work in sg
I need a think
Clear of my mind
Where shall I go
Where shall I leave
Nobody knows the way it gonna be
Its my choice
It's my life
A same mistake u can't make it twice, if it happened, it's your choice
I guess I will really need a think when national day holiday that week
After enjoy my holiday at hatyai
Throw away everything
Time to think about it
For right now
I need to focus on accrual report due next week
And linkin park concert next week!
Yay, they are my man!
The concerts that I willing to spend money for only Eason Chan, linkin park n Mayday
Other than that even though I like too
But still not that level yet for me to go and watch it live
Clear off your tiny peanut brain and think about it later after your trip
Then prepare for your future
Now not only I have to think of career future but my real future
Weevi said something weird to me that I can't even believe
And one of my colleague as well
I dunno is it the way I treat people gave them wrong signal so now that things happened
they keep asked me try for it since I'm single now
For honestly, and sorry Weevi, I'm phobia of alor setar people
The only one I loved the most, hurt the most
You're a good guy, but I'm a bad girl, I don't deserve you and I can't give things you want
And to my colleague, W
I know you treat me really really good
But, no feel is really cant force and
I quite enjoy my current single life
So.. I try to avoid this topic but someday I'll face it though
Haiz, don't wanna think it right now peng..
25 years old single not a big deal, think bout other things better
You stupid peng...
You can do it
You can do it better!
I don't even know I'm talking about
Fine, sleep better
Perhaps a sweet dream (=￣ ρ￣=) ..zzZZ
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Today is a perfecto day :3
Lots of wonderful things happened on me
Too much and amazing
I don't even know how to share my happiness here
It's too beautiful in my life
The feeling of set myself free
It's so relieved
I love myself
Yes, I do
I'll tell you the answer for my life
"Yes, I do"
This I promise you.
P/s: studying & preparing Korean language for my Korea trip next year!
Sunday, August 11, 2013
I just back from dinner
Today is an amazing day
Supposing I met dee at 1U
Ended up went to her newly renovated house
And things Unbelivable happens
we go from 1U to bukit bintang pinchio Spanish food restaurant
Because ah Yun dated the artist 李心洁
I can't believe that I sit down same table sit right beside her for dinner
She is really frenly and nice
Most important she stil that pretty without make up
She is polite and she treat us for the dinner
I'm so regret I din take pic wit her
Because she want a relax dinner and if I did so then I feel very kampong girl
Nobody gonna trust it without picture as prove
However, I know, dee know, ah Yun know because they are fren with Xin Jie
And I feel glad to had such awesome and wonderful dinner tonight
I love my day
With lerjane lersis lerbell cuties
Thanks lord :)
I love my life and friends and family
I love you <3
Trust me, I no lies
I did really had dinner with Xin Jie jus now
We chat and we had fun
Nice memories :*
Saturday, August 10, 2013
依稀记得 大约凌晨 3 点才回家
早上还开心的和Jason去puchong donutes cafe 喝下午茶
请了我很多的甜点 和 茶
欣然想起 license 打从五月就过期了
好彩没 road block
被大伙说我 大头虾 忘东忘西
Alvin 和 Choy 也是 :D
钱没了 T T
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Now, I unpack my luggage
My 4 days plan in Penang is ended and holiday still keep going until 12aug
It's tired coz we go by 2 cars, I have to drive coz another car is Penang Lang
Well,ill back to kl earlier so .. It's been awhile I din drive for such long journey
Usually either I take flight or other ppl fetch me
So, wake early at 5am, drive from nilai to cyber pick up n then puchong n then depart all the way to Penang
Because wan Ying n Biwen dunno how to drive
So..I drive for this trip..
Feeling heartache coz nearly accident on highway n I can feel my car very hurt on gear box n brake
I shouldn't did so.. So gan Jeong then ...
It's my mistake.. Will check again when service later..sorry my little blue
When arrive Penang pun quite sleepy already
Extremely tired when I up til alor setar, just a short stop
Planning is pray soon sen but seems like everyone is busy and I also can't go to temple
So just a short visit to dee's dad shop and find ah Jian
Haha, Biwen admire ah Jian got 6 packs! Haha
Sorry ah Jian, u keep ask me when to treat u, ern, I'll find a time to come again la
But.. Haha, got chance one, hutang u first har..
4 days in Penang totally no plan, free & easy,
No idea what to do when your Penang Lang eh colleague also dunno where to go
Penang, I'm not first time come, but always other ppl plan for me n I just follow only
But this time just feel like back to home
Eng eng boh dai ji zuo
So, just walk around and found sth usually din see one
Goh kaki, a place for high tea
I like the fishy..colorful
Hot weather but ngamngam aunt visit, no cold drinks allowed =(
But fruit juice without ice also nice =)
Then go to see art, as usual Lo. Hot weather.
Hehe, it's a must to take pic with wall painting?
Love this pic, so artistic. :)
Overall, thanks my colleagues that provide us accommodation
And be driver when In island even though I pun have to drive your vios
And overall is relaxing trip as supposing planning is go up Thailand
Some of us din bring passport
Sigh.. Thai plan failed :(
And Penang Lang dunno where to go..
Thanks Vinn and edwin both AS lang recommend some nice place for lunch & tea
And I met Vinn @ straits quay and had a tea time together
He is a very nice guy :)
Too bad habit art cafe din open when we in As that time
Relaxing trip as we speak hokkien
Eat nice foods, walk around, pillow talk
Pillow talk..lol really talk a lot
No idea why I cried..haha
"Come back to me" this song..keep repeating
Drunk maybe..ya, I do really love him
Not like, but love. This is the reason why I haven't let him go away from my heart afters years
He is the only reason
And he will never know
Because he never love me, am I right?
I'm imperfect, I couldn't give things that he wants..
But ended is ended
I can't stop him from getting his life better
I got no right to stop anyone, beg anyone
Wish is the best way
Penang, really is a nice place
Everyone is friendly
Northam, this place remind me, day of soon sen discharge from hospital n v had dinner together here
With dee, dee family, soon sen family
All smile happily..
I feel so regret for couldn't attend the funeral
And now even in AS also can't go n pray you
I promise I'll get a time n chance to make it
if company announcement earlier bit
Then I shouldn't be here
Off from 2aug til 12aug le.. I shall buy airticket n get away from here
But since last mins inform, last mins planning
Can't hiam :) sumore imagine days before holiday how we rush, how we push, how we all stay until 12am
So now relax, enjoy holiday n don't think bout it
As I said " live for work, work for life"
We, will get a better life :)
Today got another good news is
I got my body check report! Hehe, clear!
Means I'm a healthy person. No sickness! = )
I love myself, I love mylife and enjoy it.
Hmm.. What am I gonna do for the rest of holiday?
Lets see how :)Alright, gonna sleep
Been drive back for long journey
Blog also messy
Fine, reblog with a better topic tomorrow :)