Lost

recently feeling so lost
and keep on ask myself
''what your want?''
''what should do?''
''why like that 1?''
''so how?''
and I just can't answer these simple questions
because I really don't know what I want to do actually
just felt that there is no future
doubting myself
''Am I really want to be stay in lab? I tot myself prefer run sales more?''
''Should I accept the as Manager offer? but I can't handle it ..''
everyone just come and ask me
''how to settle this?''
and I just feel like
''I also dunno, dun ask me, please ...''
I can be very happy when i'm on fb
and everyone, will come and leave a comment or even click a like
but you will never know
I'm not happy actually
I can be very free and relax when i'm on fb
and click those link that I like, leave a comment if I'm willing to
but you will never know
I'm boring actually
you will think that i look great everyday
In fact,
I'm working like a zombie everyday
boss will only see 'result'. she will never ask ''how you gonna settle it''
so, I work till die also need to show her the 'result', I mean 'a result that she willing accept''
office politics just so sucks
and before she leave, she left alot of shyt and ask me to taste it
I know work will be like this
but I never tot I can't handle it
I just feeling so lost
day dreaming
everyone ask for resolution la 2012 la
but I just dunno what I want
just so feeling lost !